"My Inventory of Being"

I am Mikhail Alinea

I am 19 years old, yet somehow people often have mistaken me as a 15 year old.

I am an ordinary individual yet not like anyone else.

I am a good son, a good friend, and a good person.

I am 5'8", have Brown eyes, Black hair, and Brown skin, a typical Filipino Boy.

I am a being who suffers from Social anxiety and Inferiority Complex.

I am labeled as a Loner, and I'm Highly Introverted.

I am unpopular, and a Weirdo.

I see things… and I understand…

I see the world differently.

I have OCPD, and I'm fragile as a piece of glass.

I love to talk to myself. For some reason, it's therapeutic.

I am a loving and caring son.

I have the highest respect for my parents, and to the elders.

I like dipping my fries to a Vanilla Sundae with Chocolate Syrup.

I like sitting in a bench and just watch and observe people around me. By this way, I learn from them.

I smile and laugh for no apparent reason, It's even more interesting when I do it in a Public Place.

I love and appreciate music, from Hip Hop to Alternative Rock, to Mellow Love Songs and Classical Music.

I find it very amusing when I can see my breath vaporizing into thin air when it’s cold.

I love to Daydream, and I sing in the shower.

I love watching the sunrise and sunsets.

I love playing with Legos, and Uno Stacko. I make buildings and robots with them.

I make cities, and I pretend like I’m a giant and I would destroy it.

I love cover my palm with glue, let it dry, then I peel it off

I love stepping on crunchy leaves, and when it’s not crunchy, I get very upset.

I love putting my face close to a fan and speak to hear my robot voice.

I hope to find Happiness and the reason for my Existence.

I hope for the better. I respect myself.

I believe we create our own destiny, and we should not blame others and our situation for our failures.

I believe that we hold our own happiness, and it should not come from others.

I believe that all humans have gifts and talents that are still undiscovered.

I believe that we should not live our lives in based on Dichotomies; we can live to have it both ways.

I know there's a reason for everything.

I know that Love is still the most powerful thing in the world.

I don't understand people who complain that they have no money, yet they keep on purchasing expensive and useless things.

I don't understand people who have made several mistakes over and over, yet they never learn.

I don't understand why people make fun of other people's imperfections and insecurities. It is stupid, and shallow.

I admire Jesus Christ for his Altruism, Albert Einstein for his Philosophical thoughts, and the Elders for their wisdom.

I hate Messy Rooms, Desks, and unorganized Things.

I hate people who perform PDA.

I hate Ignorant, and Narrow-Minded People.

I hate it when people squeeze the toothpaste tube in the middle.

I hate it when my friends and family are too busy to spend time with me.

I spend too much money on food and books.

If I were rich, I will travel the world, pay all our debt, give several their share, make my family's dreams come true, and use it for good reasons.

I wish to find myself, and to be what I want to be.

I wish Immorality and Mediocrity were to be erased in this planet.

I wish to be more confident, and to love myself for who I am.

I have a Passion for Change, yet I seldom have the Willpower to do it.

I want to make new friends, yet I still can't get over my social anxiety.

I may be different… but I am me.